This time for our series Une Photo, une Histoire, I selected a collage. I just wanted to write about it because it was one of those moments. You know, the ones when you realise how good your life is? Yep, today Frenchie Mummy is a bit soppy! Pardon!
It was yesterday morning. Baba was having his breakfast when suddenly, he started playing with his bowl of porridge. That was ok, it was empty. Le petit monstre is quite a big eater…
But he was so happy. I just stopped and took some pics to remember. He seemed so content. He was giggling and obviously quite pleased with himself for trying to trick me. He was in the mood to play with me and I could not resist.
I just loved that moment and wanted to immortalise it, before I forget it for good. At that point, I just felt so happy and totally in love with him. Don’t get me wrong, j’adore Baba all the time, but that morning was special.
I actually realised how lucky I was to be a SAHM, to be able to witness that kind of happy moment. I know I have not always been feeling that way, especially at the start of my maternity leave when I was missing work and I was feeling a bit of a useless SAHM. It took me a little while to adjust to my new life.
But I got to enjoy my new life as a maman more and more. Yes, it took me a little bit of time to accept my status as a mummy at home. But I am now fully enjoying it. Maybe too much and then the return to work will be harder?
I am going back to work in January and I have been thinking about it a lot recently. I am a bit anxious about it. Starting work again just after our first Christmas with Baba is going to be a challenge! Plus, we will be in France with my family, so I will be spoilt! Le retour à la réalité will be interesting…
I am now very careful to make the most of it! These kinds of moments remind me how lucky I am to be able to spend all this time with Baba.
I am not saying it’s always been easy to be a SAHM. There were times when I wished I never made the decision to have a baby. But those kinds of thoughts were so short because I know that it’s the best thing I have made so far! (I warned you that this post would be sentimental… I was not lying! Haha)
I am already nostalgic about it. I received my new contract to get back to school in January. It’s been on my desk for at least a week now… I am currently looking at it while I am typing those words. Still not signed.
I am definitely back to work (part-time, so I can’t really complain), but I already have some fears.
The first one being the nursery. What if Baba doesn’t like it? Will he cry the first day? Will he miss me and wonder what’s going on? I bet you he will be fine. He is quite independent. I reckon I am the one who will be in tears!
And then, the new life as a part-timer. Will I be able to organise myself so that I don’t bring too much work at home during my days off? Will I feel guilty when I work and Baba wants my attention? Probablement… But I will have to deal with it! Dreading it right now, to be totally honest with you…
That’s why I decided to make the most of it and fully enjoy those little moments. The ones when mon petit singe is my sunshine! Yes, he is a little monkey when he does those kinds of tricks and decides to play with his bowl!
What about you? How did you adjust to your new status of SAHM? How did you cope when you went back to work? For those who decided not to go back to work, do you sometimes regret this decision?
Oops! I didn’t want this post to be depressing! Let’s put some funny pictures of Baba to cheer up a bit!